I don't always talk about you in depth and detail on the blog. Nothing personal but this is really more of an outlet for the random things that I run across in day to day life and not really a place for deep reflections.
All that is to say that you have been a series of ups and downs lately and so I'm going to take a little break from the normal quirky and what I hope to be funny letters and share what I have learned over the past couple of months.
1. I married a wonderful man and I'm so thankful for his patience. His ability to read me better and faster than anyone else is also pretty critical to our success.
2. Long Distance Marriage SUCKS- there is really nothing else I can say other than it's overrated and I would prefer not to do it again. God bless anyone that has to because of circumstances beyond their control, I think there is an order of sainthood somewhere you should be inducted into.
3. Time to myself is important. While I prefer coming home to B everyday, these last several months reminded me that I'm stronger than I give myself credit for. I can even cook myself dinner...well kinda
4. Sometimes I just have to let go and be okay with moving on. I have a really strong work ethic (I'd like to think) and some major self-imposed catholic (which I'm not so that's kinda funny) guilt. Those two things combine to create this tunnel of oppression and a feeling of letting everyone down...and that just has to stop and I'm working on it...for reals.
5. Change is hard and bittersweet no matter what the outcome is. I've never been good with change (just ask my dad...in 3rd grade I left him hate mail in his lunch for a while because his job was causing us to move). We are excited about Richmond, we wanted to get back there and yet I feel like slight sense of loss when I think about leaving Charlotte and the life that we started to build there.
6. It's okay to be at a crossroads in life and taking time to figure that out is not only okay but should be a priority. I'm a lady with a plan and I always like to be 12 steps ahead. This often drives B nuts because it means I'm thinking about things that I probably can't control and am
7. I have some of the best friends and family a person could ask for.
While none of this was overly life-shattering, putting pen to paper is always a good opportunity to reflect. I'm looking forward to whatever this new chapter brings for us and truly am excited about being back in Richmond after being gone for 5 years.